Wow! Tonight I am absolutely amazed at my mood. Last night I thought I might cry all night. I've been weepy through the morning as well.
That's not how I'm feeling tonight. I'm in a ball-busting, kick-ass mood.
It's energizing! Which means, because I know myself, I'll be very tired soon.
The pain isn't gone. I can feel it hiding behind the "attitude" just waiting to take over.
The tone of the conversations rolling through my mind, conversations I didn't have and wish I did have, is not very nice at all. It's like the "rational" me is sitting back and watching what is happening in my mind. Fortunately, I'm at home and won't take this mood out on some unsuspecting, innocent individual.
Last night, I wanted nothing more than some type of contact from Charles. Tonight, he'd best stay away.
It will be interesting to see what happens next.
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